Need To Stop The Ranting.

Reviewing the events of the last few weeks and also the last few years, something has struck me... I cuss far too much.
At the highest level of ranting, I cussed someone on twitter for supporting/voting Obama simply because he is black (or mixed race, whichever you want to view him as) and it's hip to have and vote for a black president, but knowing that if this person ever had children, they'd never want them to marry outside of their race.
Now, reviewing this I've realised that I've become everything that society has said I am... An aggressive black woman. If I continue, someday soon, someone will knock at my door with a section 186 stating that they will detain me under the mental health act.
So, my choices are to continue down this rocky path or to follow my dream of becoming my own business owner where at least I will get some self worth out of my life.

I really need to stop watching and reading the news as this tends to be a catalyst into disaster...

Know Your Future

Yesterday, I had a tarot reading.

It's weird how things happen.

I really wanted to have a reading done, and went to the college of psychic studies in South Kensington to get one done. However, I had to book an appointment to get one done. Now, I'm very impatient when it comes to these things, so I decided to head home and rethink the situation. I took the Underground Train (subway, metro, whatever you call it) and the train decided to make an unexpected stop... then it occurred to me. Why don't you go to Camden Town??? All manner of Social Misfits hangout there. I think I should be there more often as I also consider myself a Social Misfit. So, got to Camden Market, and ask one, yes that's one stall holder if there was someone round here that does Tarot Readings.... to my surprise and gratitude, she said yes there was. I followed her directions and found the readers den. With no reader. She went out as business was quiet. I called her and she said she was on her way back.

Her name was Beryl, she reminded me of an ex-colleague I had a few years ago call Soraya, but that's another story.

She asked me "do you want a general reading, or do you have specific questions you'd like to ask?" I gave her 3 specific questions.

Basically, without going into the reading too much, things are changing. Now, I had an idea that they were as I know that I'm a much stronger person now, as I was last year and went through enough shit last year to know that change was also happening then. She also said that in a previous life I had a strong bossy sense of self. The reason why I have felt so oppressed in this life is because I needed to learn and pay my Karmic Debt. She said that my Karmic Debt will be paid by October this year. I said "Thank God".

Pretty much the reading was something that I needed to have, just to tell me that I'm on the right track, and also to tell me that I'm not a waste of space and oxygen.

All things happen for a reason, which I fully accept.

It was quite refreshing. I'm glad that I treated myself to that.... For my Birthday :)

Election Fever

So, we are nearing the final lap in the race regarding "who will be the next prick behind 10 downing street".
Now, I may come across as cynical, in any event "I AM".

I have had various leaflets and door-knockers at my door. They cannot answer any of my questions that I have put forward to them.

Simple questions such as:

Where are the local jobs for local people that they are advertising? Does these local business men/women have any idea that they could potentially have a local resident in their team?

Have they got any money left after their big team drink-up for them to build social housing for people who are struggling on their mezzley income to keep a roof over their heads.

People that can afford to get on the property ladder - nice for them, I ain't begrudging them nothing... however, questions remain.... what about ME??

It's like electing the school bully for class president, knowing full well that their gonna knock the shit out of you the next day.

What choice you have??

Let me tell ya - NONE.

There ain't none... and here lies the rub.... if their isn't anyone to represent me, why vote??

I'm voting for the millions that died for me to get the vote in the first place.

I'm voting for my ancestors who survived on those ships with chains around their hands, necks and feet for days. Hardship??? I haven't experienced nothing. However, like my ancestors before me..... I have one thing that they didn't and couldn't have.... A VOICE.

I will allow my heart, my mind and my voice do the talking..... needless to say, I am looking forward to tomorrow, where I will take out my pencil and make that big old cross on the paper and turn and walk out, just as calming as I was walking in.

Too Dark To Win

Sorry peeps,
But those who know me, know that this rant was gonna come.

So, had a very interesting discussion with a member of staff a few weeks ago (Maybe that's why I was asked to leave, who knows), but nevertheless the topic of discussion was Keisha Buchanan of the sugababes, and her paler replacement Jade Ewen.

Basically, the discussion kinda started off with me stating that there is no point in me following a band/group that did not represent me, when initially starting off, they did. Especially girl bands.

We seen it all before.

When you are deemed "Too Ethnic" and you're female, then you pretty much have a lifespan of about 4 years in the music business.

What do I mean about being "Too Ethnic"??? Let's get this straight and clear. Example:

Beyonce Knowles - Exotic and Acceptable

Kelly Rowland - Too Ethnic

Jade Ewen - Exotic and Acceptable

Keisha Buchanan - Too Ethnic

Leona Lewis - Exotic and Acceptable

Alexandra Burke - Too Ethnic (Lifespan ensue)

Mariah Carey prior breakdown - Exotic and Acceptable

Mariah Carey after breakdown - Too Ethnic

What I'm saying is that in the music business, you cannot have too many darker in complexion women all at the same time.
Why? Hell if I know for sure, but if you look back over a period of time, the more successful women of colour in music were considered acceptable for a while... Mica Paris, Keisha Buchanan.... damn look, I'm stumped.

Socially, or in society, we (darker berries) are deemed as:

Aggressive
Angry
Incapable of Love
Emotionless
Ugly
Unattractive
Unintelligent
Resentful
Pretty much all the negatives that you can think of for a woman.

Probably another reason for the fact that I am celibate.

Opinions of darker women are that they're not worth the hassle, and from what I can see, that opinion is one that we can try our hardest to shift, but alas....

Maybe in a few centuries from now, the opinions may change.

But for now..... Don't expect anyone new to come on the seen (media) who happens to be a darker berry.

Part 2 to follow.

WTF!!!! Keep your friends close... Michael Jackson Chronicles

Now please people.

Michael Jackson died on what, the 25th or 26th of June 2009?

Now, now, there's stories of his best friend fathering Michael's Daughter, Paris.

Mark Lester (remember him??? Bloody "Please Sir, can I have some more?" kid from Oliver!) insists that he's the best friend of Michael's. Going as far as to say that he's godfather to the children. A week or so after MJ's death, Mark went onto "This Morning" (UK morning chat show) to say that Michael was a great father yadda yadda yadda.

Funny how he forgot to mention that Paris was his daughter then.

Is it a coincidence that this is the beginning of August 2009 and he's giving this story??

I don't know about y'all, but I make all my bank payments, debtors and creditors payments at the beginning of the month....

Do you think that Mark got his July 2009 of hush money, but realised that he wasn't gonna get these payments anymore, and has now decided to reveal to the world that he is "INDEED" the father to Paris?

My lord.

MJ had some bastards as friends or so called friends and in his death, they haven't given him an ounce of respect.

I'm not the biggest MJ fan. Loved the man's music and that but wouldn't have gone as far as to purchase a ticket to one of his concerts, but DAMN!!! I've never witnessed such sick, and vile behaviour.

Your thoughts???

Bitches & Hoes

Now,

To those of you that expect this blog to be about X-Rated porn stars and such, sorry. You'll be sadly disappointed. The bitches and hoes I'm talking about are the ones that we encounter day in and day out.

Now, I was never in the "In Crowd" and always consider myself to be a bit of a misfit and social butterfly. I was a geek. Stayed in the computer room at lunchtimes to play the L-Shaped maze on the Rimbus, but that's besides the point. The point I'm making is that I was not considered an assertive in your face hoe that disregarded others feeling. Maybe I had a slight moment of that back in primary school at the age of 10 where I pushed a young girl called Julie M in the back in assembly and had many a sleepless night about how awful I felt about treating her in such as way.

Julie M, if you're out there... I am so sorry. Please forgive me.

Also besides the point, the point is is that I learnt that you cannot treat people in this way, and can only treat people the way you wish to be treated and respect people as human beings. Though the reverse does come to hand that if others treat you with contempt, then that should be reflected at them also.

Now, the bitches and hoes....

Women like me will be able to relate to this.

Have you ever walked along a platform edge at a train station/tube station/whatever and stood there waiting for the train/tube... the sole person on the platform.... at the front.... and then when the train/tube arrives you may have a few people stood either behind you or beside you. Then when the train/tube door opens some bitch moves onto the train/tube first as if you were invisible or too ugly or dirty to ever enter a place first, god forbid, ever enter at all considering the fact that you are so hideous looking that there is now way that you would even come out of your house or box?

YES, THOSE BITCHES ARE THE ONES I'M TALKING ABOUT.

The bitches that have "The Princess Mentality".

"THE PRINCESS MENTALITY"? WHAT'S THAT?

The Princess Mentality is that of a child with curly ringlets and with people saying "Oh she's daddy's little princess". Unfortunately for the rest of us, that child turns in the Biggest Bitch most women dread to ever meet in there already miserable lives.

She's the girl that has the looks, has the dolls, has the playhouse to go with the dolls, never wants for anything, always had the cutest looking boyfriend and felt that she could have any boy she wanted.... then grows up to think that every man wants her.

This attitude oozes of these women, and no amount of IMPULSE can hide the stench of her "I can have it all" attitude.

This leads in nicely to the other element of my blog.... HOES.

HOES are those women that will still your man, knowing, that he has another woman, and feel absolutely know way about it. She won't necessarily do it cause she wants the guy, she'll do it cause SHE KNOWS SHE CAN. Hoes don't have many female friends.... in fact.... add 1 to that.... she don't have ANY female friends cause they know just how HOE-ISH she can be.

There are alot of these women around.

The BITCHES are alot harder for men to identify initially, but misfits will always know who they are. HOES however women instantly can recognise them, and men know they exist, but only find out that they're with a HOE when it's too late.

My pet hates... both of them. I try my hardest everyday and pray that I don't turn into one of these types, as I know, for a fact, ONCE A MISFIT, ALWAYS A MISFIT, AND WE RULE. LOOK AT BILL GATES.

Live in Fear

Come now.



Every few years the government comes up with another way of scaring us to death. This time, Swine Flu. Lord only knows how we felt when it was Bird Flu, Mad Cows diseases, the millennium bug... the list goes on.



I'm tired of feeling too afraid to step out onto the pavement/side walk just in case I fall victim to some strange incurable curse.

I watched an episode of Stargate where the villagers took their own lives when they turn 25 so that the "Wrath" won't harm their community. They didn't know that the people that created this ritual actually wanted to limited the population and created this myth so that they will stay within the parameters of knowledge.

Funny that.

It's strange when you think to yourself that some fiction is based on an element of fact. Population control. If the population is become way too unmanagable, what should you do?

We have an epidemic here in London which isn't something that you can go to the General Practioner to cure. We have young people killing each other for no real reason. Their bored, they want to prove themselves to others, their values are warped and society is allowing them to feel down about themselves and feel that everyones against them. The weird thing about this is that 27 people were killed by the end of last year in London, and nothing was done. A few people cough and the whole world's gone crazy.

Why???

Maybe having less young people on the streets taking from society instead of making money to give to society is cost effective.
If we're ill, the first thing we do is go out and buy things to make us better. The number of us without means to grow our own produce within the cities are less and less.

My last little rant.

From the ages of 18 - 65 years, you are deemed fit to contribute to society and "paying your dues" right??? I know a number of people who as soon as they turn 65 years old they were told that they were Diabetic and put on a slow killing pill called insulin. Funny that. Throughout all their lives they were fit, and as soon as they are ready to retire, they are told to take a pill. Population control?